off we go..a merrily through the woods
to the hospital and back...or over the river and through the woods. Most of my agitating is on hiatus for the moment. I'm just trying to get through the last of the semester well...but this semester has had it's druthers tossed about in laundry rooms...emergency rooms...and presentation experiences. My partner has attempted suicide many times over the past months. The last time the police found her gone quite blue with her belt around her neck. They were able to bring her back...But I cannot say with any certainty that she truly wants to be back...she's growing thinner than a shadow by the moment...I promised to hold her hand along the way...this way...that way till the end of this time...and I am...but , oh it is exquisitely painful.
I have been amazed at just how easily a person can disappear...again...again...again...my thoughts stumble over one another in a gruesome bit of leapfroggery...
and that blue blue skin spilt milk on some distant grassy knoll...so i hold on to her hand...and know I can not think of the right words...nor can I ask her to stay Share